Yesterday I read one of the most thoughtful post about blogging 🙂 It has inspired me to write more and better… It has given me hope that I can be good – very good at this. It has also given me the courage to be more confident in my writing. Yes, some people out there want to read what I put in writing. Some people out there need to read what I write.
Let me quote the beautiful piece of T.S. Eliot (Thanks to Morgan Mussell)
So here I am, in the middle way, having had twenty-years –
Twenty years largely wasted, the years of l’entre deux guerres –
Trying to learn to use words, and every attempt
Is a wholly new start, and a different kind of failure
Because one has only learnt to get the better of words
For the thing one no longer has to say, or the way in which
One is no longer disposed to say it.
For us, there is only the trying. The rest is not our business.
Take no thought for the harvest, but only for the proper sowing.
The words will come alive if they come out of the deepest thought from an experience . They are called rhema – the words that come alive.
I believe God send angels in writings as well. You never know. A simple sentence, or even a single word can struck you powerfully. It can be an oasis in the middle of the desert. It can be a tickle that brightens your heart.
I promise myself, I will write at least every week! 😀 (…so help me God! lol).
As T.S. Eliot wrote, “Take no thought for the harvest, but only for the proper sowing”, I shall sow my words and they will grow in someone’s heart that they change the life.
I notice now that every 2 or 3 years I would go through this loosing-the-feeling thing. Not really into anything that I am doing anymore…
After a thorough self-obseravtion and this and that analysis, I found out that I always want or need new things to do, or should I say new challenge, every now and then.
At first I got really frustrated with myself, because it’s not an easy feeling to deal with. The worst part would be to feel useless and unwanted, and trust me it’s so hard to believe that people like you at those times. All I want to do is just disappear and appear somewhere else unknown with the people I haven’t known. I have no idea where those feelings come from. I just get bored of all I do.
But now I know. It shows me that I need a change. I need to meet new people. I need to be in a new place. I need to do new things.
So I have a check list:
Meeting new people – need more.
Being in a new place – not yet.
Doing new things – at the moment: BLOGGING! Yeah, I blog because I need to do a new thing. I fall in love with blogging now. And I know why it helps, it’s not just about ‘doing a new thing’, but more to that, it brings me to new places and ‘meet’ new people in a unique way. It’s like I’m creating my own world.
An escape? I don’t know. But it helps. I found the mood back… sort of.
I have been living and roaming around Jakarta for about 25 years but never really paid attention on capturing the city in photographs. Not until this summer.
It started when my husband and I were walking on one of the crossing bridges at the main street of Jakarta, on our way to the insurance company one Tuesday afternoon. We parked our car at Le Meridien Hotel, and then crossed the street. I remember it was cloudy, and we had quite a serious conversation about our small investment. Then I looked to the right and saw this rare view of my city. I grabbed my Blackberry and took this picture right away.
When I posted it on Facebook, someone thought that it was taken on Sunday morning, when it’s (usually) quiet. Well, no surprise – Jakarta wouldn’t be this serene during weekdays. This city has been known as the city of chaos and traffic jams… The view in the picture looks more like a painting than a photograph. I love the view of the buildings far at the back, under the grey and pinkish sky. It’s just like in a brochure of a “dream city”. I wish Jakarta could be this serene… everyday!
From this picture, I decided to make a series of photographs entitled “I Heart Jakarta”.
A couple of weeks after that, my husband took me on a photo hunting with some friends. The area is the famous landmark of Jakarta: Bunderan Hotel Indonesia (The Hotel Indonesia Roundabout) with its legendary Patung Selamat Datang (The Welcome Statue) and Hotel Indonesia.
Patung Selamat Datang waves people goodbye as they drive home from work
This spot looks amazing at night with the lights from the fountain, the buildings, the street and the vehicles.
Interestingly, while taking these photos, I saw a different Jakarta – magnificent! The lights from the cars stuck in traffic jams looked gorgeous from the camera (although the people inside those cars wouldn’t agree with me).
cars, here, there, everywhere!
Before, I was not a big fan of Jakarta. But from this summer I can say “I heart Jakarta”.
So, I’m a new kid on the blog. I was inspired by some great blogs here, and since I’m not a talker, I guess blogging is going to be good for me to spill what I have in mind. I think I’m going to write more about life – a neverending issue.
I dream that the writings can somehow become a remedy for the restless souls, just like writing becomes a remedy for my -sometimes- restless mind.